appreciation~

why dun ppl appreciate the things that i have done..
all they noe is to nag at me..
i get so upset..
need a moment of silence..
dere are so many things going arnd now..
how do i handle?..

life is ugly~

giving it a try~

finally read finish the book "How will i know"..great book..
this thought pop into my head after reading the book..

decided to give a try to plant the sunflower..i tink wont grow ba..but i willing to give it a try..(:

no harm trying..i'll put care and love to it..wahaha..hopefully it will grow..

chasing cars~

woohoo~..

changed my blog song again..

i just love this song so much..(:

went to The atrium with my sis to collect her prize..

i tell u wad..

the office of nickelodeon..

so pretty lah!..

the walls are snow white..

and anrd the office are all the cartoon characters..

deres spongebob..stitch..

so nice~..

wish i worked dere..

the security lady also very friendly..lolx..

den headed to far east..

bought 1 shoe and 1 flip flop..

wahaha..pocket have hole liao..

*if i lay here..if i just lay here..would you lie with me?..

and just forget the world..*

without contrast~

taken from the book: "rainbow soup"..

jog~

phew~..just came back home from a jog..
wad a nice weather..
lots of ppl jogging too..
ran arnd CHR and the track outside..
the sky was clear blue and wide..there's no boundaries..listening to MP3..
awwww~...
i want to stay longer..
but began to turn dark alr..
saw one father teaching his son to ride a bicycle..
so sweet..
remember the times when i learnt to cycle..hais..
den have one indian guy run so fast..lolx..
i walk 2 round of the track..dunno how many laps he have run liao..
maybe i'm too slow..lolx..enjoyed the scenary..
went up the teletubbies hill..
the scenary so breath-taking..lol..
after tat headed home..
walked past the back gate of CHR..
looked at the classroom i used to be in..memories started pouring back..
saw the 3 posters hanging outside the sch..saw george's face..lol..
tat was when he was sec 1 if i'm not wrong..everyone seems to change alot..
the poster also faded le..it reminds me that 4 year plus have past..
so fast..
time waits for no man..(:
walked past the backgate..and the walked the route i used to walk back home..
suddenly..i felt that its good to be back in sec sch..
the uniforms..the teachers..friends..classmates..class 4/3..
i miss all of ya loads..(:

believe~

我决定退后~

the photo is at the fireworks de..

thanks to shi fu's friend..

very clear shot..:)

the words are added by me..

tats wad i am feeling now~..

*我决定退后*

Jay's..退后

better~

aH..

feel so muuccch~better..

i tink shopping really helps u to destress..lol..

tats y i always loved retail therapy..(:

gonna spend more more money tmr again..haix..

by this rate how can i buy my handphone..

sobsobx..):

i'll try to save..

bought 2 tank tops..1 cap..accessories..woohoo..

i wan moremore~..

wees..

do u tink i can plant sunflower in HDB flat?..

i mean in my balcony..

any advise pls?..

*i'm in love with flowers*..

bad mood~

pls dun touch my tings b4 asking my permission..

or u nv even ask me!..

dun feel lyk doing anything today..

in such a BAD BAD mood..

one thing tat makes me calm down is the rose beside me..

the scent..just calms me down..(:

tats the beauty of flowers rite?

lol..feeling much better..

ytd the rose is lyk dying..luckily it revive again..

wees~..thank god..

but it will eventually die..just hope it wont die so fast..

so tat it can accompany me..

*confused*

roses~

today went to church..had so much fun again..=)

u can see alot of roses on the stairs to the stage..

its just so beautiful..

today..married couples renew their vows..

so touching..

seeing the couples..awwww~..

lolx..after the service..lee kian handed one roses each from the seats infront for li ping..me..and tingting..so nice..thank u~..lol..to be frank..its the first time i receive real flower..lol..sad rite?!..

*someone pls give me roses..=p*

clumsy~

today is just not my day..or should i say bad luck..

hais..

first..

i broke the cover of a pot while washing the dishes..

luckily it only broke into 2 pc..

secondly..

i spill one pot of plant in the balcony..

den all the soil spilled out..

but luckily is only a small pot of plant..

*bad day*

change~

motivation~

finally watched finish the 11 ep of 1 litre of tears..

i really cried from ep 1 till 11..lol..

dunno how many packets of tissue i have used up..

b4 u watch i tink u need to prepare some tissue beside u..lol..

although the show have been quite a long time alr..but tat doesn't matter does it?..

wad matters tat it touched my heart..

i gives me the strength and motivation to live..

seeing the strength aya has given..

the way she live her life..

she's a strong gal..

have u ever wondered tat that if one day u were sick..

that u carn walk..carn talk..carn write..

wad would u do?..

i guess i wont be able to live as strong as aya..=)

what is the purpose of living?..

*live ur life to the fullest*

to be able to help the others..

*touched*

One litre of tears~

watched this show..recommended by hui min..thanks~..i loved the series..it is based on a true life story..i watched till ep 4 alr..cried for every ep..the story will touch ur heart..i hoped u will watch it..=)..

This dorama is about a girl who was diagnosed with a disease
called Spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old, and was able to
continue her life until her death at the age of 25 years old.The plot is based
on the true story of a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had the same disease.
She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no
longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the
purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed
tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from
her family, friends, and boyfriend.

taken from: http://fansub.guckies.com/items/one_litre_of_tears.html

here's the first episode:..

*pls watch~*

my dream phone~

i wan to change my phone..

this is my dream phone..awwww..so ex..lol..

have to save more money from now on..

or maybe i get sony errison K750i first..den save money buy one digital cam instead..hmmm..

tough choice..lol..

Deep in our souls~

would u lie with me?

grabbed from: http://jerraine.blogspot.com/

enjoying~

wow..today had an extremely great time..

spent my whole day with my niece and nephews..

they are just way too cute..lol..i'll upload the photos once my sis send me..=)..

went to SRC to have a swim..it has been a long time since i put on my swimming costume..den went for sauna..it had been years since i step into the hot and steamy room..lol..

after tat headed to Hard Rock Cafe..to celebrate one of my sis friend's son bday..lol..

on the way sat my brother-in-law new car..such a cool car with TV..wad can u say abt that..lol..jkjk..along the way saw alot of flowers beside the road..so beautiful..especially the sunflowers..*awwww*..haha..

went hard rock to have dinner..felt abit felt out..lol..cos such a big grp..but i played with my niece and nephew..they are just way too cute..hope to upload the pics asap..=)..deres one i took with my niece..

at the car park saw one car with hello kitty pics all over the car..kawaii..lol..

so tired today le..

need to slp early..

*sleepy*

How will I know?

went to library with sis just now..saw this book in the new arrival section..seems lyk a nice book to read..hopefully i can finish the whole book cos..lol..

meet TK during his break time..toktok awhile den he go back to work le..lol..since a long time i met him..lol..nice catching up..=)..

later going for church service le..wees..

so happy..

Lp..u take care ok?..

i very worried abt u..health is more impt than study..=)..

hope u can get well tmr..

den can acc me..lolx..

love ya..

*take care*

Results..

here's my results..wad i can say is i'm quite satisfied..but not very good..cos no A's..hehe..i'll work harder the next semester..carn make the same mistake again..Jia You~!!..wonder how TA08 has done..hope they will do well..=)

haix..look at my results..next sem must get at least 3.5..

tsktsk..TK u get 3.9?!..how to get so high..lol..u A student alr..lol..haix..

but at least i dun have to retake any modules..tats the good thing..

i just noticed that the image carn be seen clearly..i've got 3.1364 for my GPA..haix..3.5..here i come..

i miss u daddy~

Papa..i miss u so much!
i missed the days with u arnd..
y do u have to leave?..
imagine me without u..
3 yrs passed by..
but..it seems lyk ytd..that u were with us..

i longed to see ur face..
i was heart broken..

imagine me without u~

hahas..changed my blog song..got addicted to this song..=)..

is called imagine me without u..

isn't it nice?..

hais..postpone my shopping + movie trip to next week..

so tmr have to spend the whole day at home..lolx..

nvm..hang on dere~..

dere's still 1 more day b4 i get back my results..wees~..so excited..and worried..

wish to get GPA above 3..can ma?..

friends~

today is another tiring day..for lunch mum asked me to fry the fish..lol..so funny..i fry the fish until the fish no more meat..cos the meat stuck to the frying pan..lol..should have taken a phtoto of it..lol..

dere's still tonnes to do..haix..when will it be done?..

tmr maybe going out..wees..finally~..

i really need a rest..do some shopping..=)..

hopefully i can go tmr..wees~~..

Boring~

Life has been boring for me this holiday..

carn wait for sat to come..wees~!!!..

i tink i will grow mad..need to go out..and relax awhile~..

haix..

*bored*

love in the heart~

i wan to work..lolx..but..have to take care of my sis this holiday..hais..and all the hsewk..so much..it's lyk u carn finish doing them..i wan my holiday!..sobsob..tired of all the chores..cooking..sweeping..cleaning..endless work~..but i must perservere..

in the morning went for a jog with sharon arnd CHR..didn't perspire much..lol..gain so much weight recently..hais..temptations!..

illusions~

touched my heart~

today went to church..its the most touching service since i went dere..i felt god's love..tears started to roll down my cheeks..lol..it really touched my heart..i love u..my parents..my friends..ppl arnd me..=)..

*blessed*

running~

today quite a fun day..but today went to giodano with sharon lee to ask for job..but they had enuf staff alr..sobsob..JOBS!..

after tat went to meet sharon cheong..helped her in some of her maths..but there are so many qns that i have forgotten how to do..rusty mind..i wished i could regain my knowledge so i can help them..lolx..after that home..cos my sus called that she was alone at home..so quickly went back..went for a jog with liping..my neighbour child..cousin and sis..very big grp..lol.. we ran arnd chr..when we are abt to reach home..it suddenly rained so heavily..everyone got soaked wet..i hope i wont be sick again..

*giddy*

Job~

haix..went to find job today..but..

"Jobs are so difficult to find"...

anyone have lobang?..

i really need a job..haix..helphelp!..went to Lot 1 to find if have any jobs..den guess who i saw..i saw my best friend during primary school..and her bf if i'm not wrong..we just wave hi..den walked away le..she changed alot..i was so shocked to meet her..lol..i always wished to meet her in the streets..but i forgot to get her contact number..alamak..howhow?..i tink i have to let fate decide when we are meeting each other again..missed the times where we spend our time together during primary school..but i guess both of us have changed alot..

*let us meet again pls*

i will remember you~

link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik2C0tv2D-I

steve irwin..u will be missed..

rest in peace~

first product~

went to borrow the books on fireworks just now..

i found 'macromedia fireworks 4'..haix..carn find 8..

the info in the books so lack..haix..maybe i should try to look for it again..

played arnd with the software..den..hurhur~..created this..

i know its not very nice..but i tried my best le..okay!

i'll try harder next time..=)..

does the child look cute to u?..

she's so cute~kawaii..

she's my niece..lol..eating ice kacang..

cutecute..loved her so much..

*memories have no power*

random post~

source : http://jerraine.blogspot.com/

later gonna hit the library..wanted to borrow some books on macromedia fireworks..must make full use of the software in my lappy..wees..=)

hope i can find the books..

when there was me and you~

It's funny when u find urself looking from the outside
i'm standing here
but all i want is to be over there
why do i let myself believe miracles could happen
cause now i have to pretend that i don't really care
i thought u were my fairytale
my dream when i'm not sleeping
i wish upon a star that's coming true
but everybody else could tell that i confused my feelings with the truth
when there was me and you
i swore i knew the melody
that i heard u singing
and when u smile u make me feel that i could sing along
but then u went and changed the words
now my heart is empty
i'm only left with used-to-be's
and once upon a song
now i know that ur're not a fairy tale
and dreams are meant for sleeping
and wishes upon a star just don't come true
cause now even i can tell that i confused my feelings with the truth
because i liked the view
when there was me and you
i carn believe that i could be so blind
it's like u were floating while i was falling
and i didn't mind
because i liked the view
i thought u felt it too
when there was me and you



link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kq0KEllpKqc

feeling emotional~

haix..dunno why..keep feeling so emotional these days..

i tink some of my toughts are meant to be kept with me..

i tink i need to find a job..to keep all the unwanted toughts away from me..

i wanted to cry..

my heart is crying..

will dere be anyone who will comfort me?..

*let the rain fall on me*

*i am alone*

Sad~

if u have watched aqmfs..u will lyk this..

featuring 'HERO' from 183 club..

*something is missing in me~*

if u carn see the video..here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUYXWjH_QlQ

don't be afraid to love~

saw this on a website..

"don't be afraid to love"

some say that love is beautiful;

and it should make you smile.

but sometimes love can hurt you;

and it can hurt you quite awhile.

Perherps it is a lost love;

That makes you cry at night.

Or maybe it's a selfish love;

that doesn't treat you right.

Maybe it's a love gone bad;

From hurtful things one said.

Or maybe a love that has gone astray;

And to another, they were led.

Perherps it's just a love that's lost;

As two people drifted apart;

And as the space grew wider;

The love drifted from their heart.

No, not that all love is beautiful;

But it's something we all want.

For without it, we feel nothing;

And the lack of it would haunt.

We all need love, in some way;

From different people in our lives

If it is not for love, good or bad;

I doubt that anyone survives.

Don't be afraid to love someone;

Even tough it may hurt one day.

You will survive to love again;

And that hurt will fade away.

- Betty Harkins

not my day~

haix..today is not my day..feel so sick today..but still managed to attend church service..=)

toughts began to overwhelmed me..

toughts..

abt love~

abt past~

abt dad~

will i ever meet a guy i love?..

feeling so scared..

i wan to shoulder to lean on..

to protect this small heart of mine..=)

this is part of a lyrics from a song during the worship..

i find it very nice..

will dere be a person whom i can say this words to?..

i love because u first love me..

u came and poured urself so free..

my first love forever u will be..

my first joy the world can never take from me..

my convenant with u~....

ur love falls down~

*afraid/wondering*

sick!

haix..feel sick..i tink is becos i got caught in the rain ytd..having high fever now..i have no strength to stand up..haix..every letter i type takes time..first time feel so weak..

hope to get well by tmr..

helphelp!

*feeling so sick*

Happy Teachers' Day~

Happy teachers' day to every teacher in CHR..u all are the best..esp. those who taught me b4..

mrs Rajakumar..

although nv had a chance to tok to u today..but happy to see u in sch today..

mr thomas than..

hope u lyk the converse shirt from liping, me and friends..

ms aisha..

still very cute~..

mrs yap..

thank you for ur love and care..

mdm wee..

very fun-loving..

ms chee..

very cute also..

mr tien..

veryveryvery nice teacher..promised to have a tea time during the holidays..

love u all teachers..if not for u all..dere wun be me..=)..

went to CHR with swee wen at 9 plus..

den went to find audris and liping..wees..

after tat went to watch the concert..to say the truth..the concert was rather boring..but i lyk the last performance by the modern dance..

after concert went to meet all the teachers..chat awhile..den my bro called..OMG..so wad lo..lol..he say he nv bring key..den i have to go back home and pass it to him..$%@#&^...

haix..missed out alot of time..nvm..haix..

after all of tat went to cwp to makan..went to jack place..liping and yong an kept bickering..lol..so funny..den we headed towards marina sq and then bugis..

during the journey..yong an and i became crazy..lol..i tink i today sotsot alr..but was so funny..lol..we must go back to IMH alr..h3h3..

today bought 1 shirt and 1 skirt only..=)..

enjoy the shopping time..and the accompany of friends..

*disappointed*